i just need to rant here. i never feel so insulted and untrust. It is super hurtful. U think i want it to happen.. how can i control the other party not to hit. is not like i HIT!!!! and is not my fault. who cause we to change.. who cause me to with unclear instruction!!!! and yet that fellow can laugh and say when i want to borrow say crazy.. is my fault meh. u think i want it to happen. Then dun want to lend cause dun trust me.. is not like i hit it.. i can't control circumstances right!!!!!!!!! i already had to give out so much for it!! it cause me everything yet what i get.. i suffer not u all... who get it.. IS ME!! NOT YOU!! u will never feel the way i felt.. i felt crush and crumble yet.. u tell me.. is have to depend on myself already have ppl and friend that can say that really hurts me deep inside.. say things that are untrue? Gossip.. ? What secrets u know.. u know nothing dun anyhow say..!!

I give out everything for all of you yet. i dun expect anything. cause is better to bless other yet.. u think i rock no feeling isit.. think of others feelings when u do something.. why must snatch everything..