Tuesday, May 20, 2008
i just need to rant here. i never feel so insulted and untrust. It is super hurtful. U think i want it to happen.. how can i control the other party not to hit. is not like i HIT!!!! and is not my fault. who cause we to change.. who cause me to with unclear instruction!!!! and yet that fellow can laugh and say when i want to borrow say crazy.. is my fault meh. u think i want it to happen. Then dun want to lend cause dun trust me.. is not like i hit it.. i can't control circumstances right!!!!!!!!! i already had to give out so much for it!! it cause me everything yet what i get.. i suffer not u all... who get it.. IS ME!! NOT YOU!! u will never feel the way i felt.. i felt crush and crumble yet.. u tell me.. is have to depend on myself already have ppl and friend that can say that really hurts me deep inside.. say things that are untrue? Gossip.. ? What secrets u know.. u know nothing dun anyhow say..!!
I give out everything for all of you yet. i dun expect anything. cause is better to bless other yet.. u think i rock no feeling isit.. think of others feelings when u do something.. why must snatch everything..
I give out everything for all of you yet. i dun expect anything. cause is better to bless other yet.. u think i rock no feeling isit.. think of others feelings when u do something.. why must snatch everything..
Tuesday, May 06, 2008
Hi all, Yup sorry it has been a long time since i update. i will try to update as much as possible. hope at least got ppl read.
Lets start something on a happy note. Now currently i am having my attachment at chartered semicon industry. thank God for sustaining me. everyday work till 5.18pm but sometimes later. today work wasn't that back. actually quiet worried how well or not my supervisor will grade me on my first assessment. Today i did not go BSF cause i am sick still. though i sick i still had to go work. having flu and cough.
So many things have happen. hold the shield of faith is very hard. and i want to state that yes God is the most important and that i have not put man above God. Ppl are important to me especially those that have an importance in my life. so stop snatching it away from me. So many things happen. why all must fall on me.. very heavy to move. trying my best to with God's help to move on. sad.. issues.. so many things is not easy at all and with the added problem. ppl i care all for u all.. Stay strong ok. Always keep the relationship and to build up relationship. not to tear each other down. but build one another up. ppl got to be sensitive u know to others too.
Amy ask me if i celebrating my 21st birthday next year. i wonder what will my 21st birthday be? an unforgettable one with good memories or now with.. i am scared.
Lets start something on a happy note. Now currently i am having my attachment at chartered semicon industry. thank God for sustaining me. everyday work till 5.18pm but sometimes later. today work wasn't that back. actually quiet worried how well or not my supervisor will grade me on my first assessment. Today i did not go BSF cause i am sick still. though i sick i still had to go work. having flu and cough.
So many things have happen. hold the shield of faith is very hard. and i want to state that yes God is the most important and that i have not put man above God. Ppl are important to me especially those that have an importance in my life. so stop snatching it away from me. So many things happen. why all must fall on me.. very heavy to move. trying my best to with God's help to move on. sad.. issues.. so many things is not easy at all and with the added problem. ppl i care all for u all.. Stay strong ok. Always keep the relationship and to build up relationship. not to tear each other down. but build one another up. ppl got to be sensitive u know to others too.
Amy ask me if i celebrating my 21st birthday next year. i wonder what will my 21st birthday be? an unforgettable one with good memories or now with.. i am scared.